Arvi's Journal ep.1

 ARVI'S JOURNAL

ep.1

The midterm week is finally over! I can't put into words how happy i am! This week was full of drama and stress so i'd like to tell you some of it.

So you probably do know this if you're a Graphic Design student like me, if you're not. Let me tell you how our exams are. We give assignments. Our teachers gives us projects/assignments and we finish them until midterms. We do have written (or theoric) exams. Last year which was the freshman year of university was very easy. Like i wasn't stressed everything was chill. But this year... Things got out of hand a little.

Every year at the end of summer i get an artist block. I do not know why, but i do. It's the worst thing ever, you're constantly depressed and you can't put your depression to use. Terrible times really. No creative juices. Brain is empty. As a person who's overthinking all the time, this time of the year is against my nature. It hurts me. I feel like a polar bear in the dessert.

For some reason, at the beginning of this semester i couldn't keep up. Everything was too much. There was too much change i couldn't keep up. I couldn't do assignments because no creative juices, i was still having an artist block. And i went home after 2 weeks for the weekend, i had to clear my mind. And when i came back...I immediately got Baldur's Gate 3 and a subscription for NVIDIA GeForce Now (this is not sponsored) and let me tell you... That was the best and the worst decision i made. I didn't slept for hours, i skipped meals, i just went to classes and came back, didn't do any assignments and Ooooh brother...It took its revenge very very well.

Even when 2 weeks left for exams i kept playing Baldur's Gate and didn't cared about anything. But i did do some of my assignments. When 1 week left i got a little bit serious. 

But during that time i had a small issue. Sleep. 

I had a trouble sleeping. Yes i did fell asleep. But it was like this:

-1am wake up

-2am wake up

-3am wake up

Every one hour i woke up. Then it reduced to 30 minutes and then to 15 and then to 5 minutes. And i decided "Okay. I gotta take some medicine or something." I bought a Passiflora syrup and drank it. It did help a little. And then a day after or two, my father came and brought me my Monitor. She's so pretty.

Isn't she pretty? And yes i put my favourite one and only cambion Raphael (on the montior) and his pretty incubus (on my macbook) as background. Be brave girls. Ok?

And it really did help. After sleep issues i had eye issues. Sight issues? anyways. My teacher suggested me to look into a bigger screen and i did so. (Also my beloved monitor will be of use when i play Baldur's Gate 3 haha) It really did work. My Typography teacher suggested this "dip your fingers to black tea, apply it to your eyes, then pray your graditude to me." MAN WAS RIGHT. IT DID WORK. AND AFTER THIS ONE WEEK HOLIDAY I'M GONNA TELL HIM THAT. Maybe i should bring him a dessert or something. Some night's i didn't sleep, and it was hard to stay awake, his suggestion really worked. 

The entire week my dormitory room was a mess but it was worth it. I did get too many creative ideas for poems. I will be sharing some of my midterm works for you, the ones that im proud of obviously.

 

I'm very glad the midterm week is over. I know some of you gonna say "Arvi, are you a fool? you need to put your life in order." and you are completely right about that. I even bought a journal. But we shall see.

SO WHAT'S THE LESSON HERE?

Don't be like me. Do your assignments on time, sleep, eat and rest your wrists.

-with love and hugs, Arvölna.

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